Busy Little Bee......

Busy busy busy, this is the word that I can use to describe my life in the month of July! I must admit, though, that I bring it ALL upon myself. See I volunteer for an AMAZING christian kids camp, which when I started, it was only one week long, well....that was six years ago, and now we have extended it to three weeks.....a session for each age group, kids, preteen and teen. I love to do it, I mean we operate on volunteer basis, and it keeps the cost of the camp fee down, which is great, and we plant sooooo many seeds in these children, but I am so exhausted after the sessions. *sigh* But that's another blog..........

So, we are celebrating the 4th of July weekend, which, where I am from we have a lot of small communities that each sponsor a different fireworks display, so it seems we are going to all kinds of fireworks festivities, one on the 27th, one on the 2nd, one on the 3rd, and then the one on the 4th. Plus there is the parade on the 4th, which happens to be a big to do with my best friend's family........then, On the 5th I start my first session of camp, and come home just for Friday night and Saturday, Sunday I have to set up a fundraiser and leave for the second session of camp, (at some point while I am home I have to do my laundry and prep for the following week...) after second session I come back home for Friday, so I have to work because I am kinda the boss, and since I will be away for the week, I am sure I have so much damage control I may have to call in the National Guard or something, who knows. then Saturday is filled with laundry and prepping ( what a glamorous life, No?) Sunday is back to Camp for the final session, Thursday Night is home late, Friday morning is my Final Divorce hearing ( which scares the pants off me BTW) at ten thirty, followed by work at noon, and a rehearsal dinner ( not MINE, a girlfriend is getting married) that evening (which is going to rock, because I will probably need to drink) and then Saturday I am in the Wedding, which will be.....hmm let's just say, worthy of blogging about I am sure......and then.....*sigh* I may, jusy maybe, be able to exhale for the first time all month......

So why Do I do crazy stuff that completely over books my life? Well, It keeps me outta trouble for sure, and because, well, let's just be honest....I do like it, why else would I do it? Is is crazy to think about all at once, you had better believe it, but hey, that's why I blogged, I mean at least now I have in hard copy on what the heck I am supposed be doing........So I guess this also means that I have the potential to have a few more blogs based on these experiences........and I guess that also means you may want to hang onto your panties cause we're in for a ride.........until next time.....

Just a little Salt.......

I am at a point in my life where I am sure I am doing just what I need to be doing, but I can't help but keep glancing back over my shoulder just to make sure.........It's rather annoying, really. You know that in the Bible, which, yes, I read regularly, it says that God directed Lot (what a name) and his wife to leave the city they lived in and to not look back....well leave it to the fricken woman, (you know the gender that really messed things up from the start) to look back, over her shoulder and internally mourn the loss of their lifestyle. Well, since God himself had instructed them NOT to look back, and this was way before Jesus came to save humanity, you know the time when god was righteous and all, God ZAP!, turned Lot's wife into a pillar of salt.......Imagine that for a second, here they are just walking along, and I picture Lot telling his wife that everytging will be great...yada yada and she is probably arguing with him or in the very least being difficult to convince, and POOF he looks over and she is gone, and all that is left in her place is ......salt. CRAZY!!!

So what does this have to do with me? Well I feel, for the first time, like I am right where I need to be...no more forks in the road, with me just sitting there contemplating where in the world or what in the world I should be doing or going. I am just afraid, I feel like if I leave behind something i won't ever get it back.....It's foolish I know, because I truly believe that God will provide any of my needs. So I guess I should try and evaluate if this thing is really a need?

Perhaps it's just a desire....but I remember reading a passage in the Bible that says, May He give you the desires of your heart and make all your plans succeed...........Hmmm thought provoking. Maybe I should just do what I am doing, since i also believe that God has placed me here with the people that i am surrounded by, and know that He already has taken care of whatever my crazy doubts are....ooooh doubts, there is a word I know also.....Satan is the Father of lies and doubt, he casts seeds of doubt everywhere he goes....hmmmm never thought of that either, well I guess "talking" it out has just set my head straight, .....interesting, well I guess all I have to say now is thanks for sitting long enough for me to think through this ridiculous thing? :o) Until next time..........